On My Way

I am on my way

To a better day

The night has come

To take this one away.

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I know that tomorrow

Has to be a better day

For today is as bad

A day I’ve had in many a day.

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Sick and dejected

After being rejected

I came to my bottle

And found its bottom.

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Still deep in remorse

Too drunk to drive

But not drunk enough

To drown the sting.

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So I walked to the store

Just a mile away

Bought a case of beer

And drank it on the way home.

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Two cans down

By the time I get back

And another four

In short order.

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I hope that before the time

The rest is gone

I will find oblivion

And be able to forget.

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To forget, at least for the night

How bad it hurt

How bad it still hurts

All the dreams and anticipation,

~

That died with her decision

To find a life without me,

And leave me to my

Own devices.

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So I am on my way

To a better day

Just as soon as I

Can forget.

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Don't live in the past

They say

But are we not the

Sum of all we did?

~

And is not that better day

Launched from the now

That we stand upon

All the days you have lived?

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What did I learn from

Her leaving,

But not to trust another

With the love of my heart?

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Pick and choose

From this and that

That was put before me

With my own acts.

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Desire still lives

But has no object.

Hope has reached the point

Of hopelessness.

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Pitiful

But I ware my mask

Putting the smile on my face

Somehow ashamed.

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Ashamed of my failure

To keep the one I love

And so desired

To be by my side.

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So I speak not of this

But have resigned myself

To living a life 

Without the love of a woman.

~

This I know

Is my very own fault.

For there have been many

Who wanted me

That I did not want.

~

And way too many

I wanted that did not want me.

We all go on our way

Picking and choosing as best we can.

~

With the ghosts

Of yesterday

Shading our decisions

And pointing our ways.

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Rexx